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I was asked to remain optimistic,

During the time my life made me tired and sick…

This time, it wasn’t my mistake,

‘Cause I figured out everything in life is temporary and fake…

Got toyed around with and ignored,

Annoyed by it; I’m feeling fatigued and I am bored…

I wish there was someone who could know what’s in my heart and on my mind,

Life is being a sadist, generating misery from the energy of every other emotion it finds…

I’m begging for a state of sobriety,

Trying to keep my head above the waves of anxiety…

Wondering, if I’ll ever find my liberty,

From the faint pink witnesses of bittery…

Not being able to get anything done,

I want to leave this life behind and run…

It has taken over my soul and is appearing over my body now,

Signs of despondency are finally avow...

The Unsettled

A ravishing mystery indeed, 
Resulting in deepened breathing and rapid heartbeat... 
A moment we don't discuss anymore, 
A memory that lures... 
We walked towards the dark parking lot, 
Each and every emotion, we fought...
Standing together, facing one another, 
Looked into his ardent eyes and saw the excitement creeping in from the corners...
He was lit and so was I, 
Despair rose in the air, leaving us nervous and shy... 
Should we lean in or just let it go? 
As confused as I was, he never lifted his eyes again from the floor...
An inch, a step, a hand away, 
Was a moment which could make or break our day... 
His touch started the slow flow of lava deep inside me, 
We both wanted to unleash the sensuality and set it free... 
Goosebumps increased despite the rising temperature, 
No words were spoken, nothing was uttered... 
Tuck tuck tuck... Footsteps were heard far away, 
Leaving our feelings astray... 
He gave me a helpless, longing look and carried on with his work, 
Uninformed about the impending crises that'll lurk... 
Staring at the ground I wondered if I would ever know, 
Whether would the mystery's ending be bad or woah... 

-Safa Hassan

Believe, Love, Relief... Death

He came into her life and made her believe, 

Gave her love a huge sigh of relief...

She thought this was it, a breakthrough moment for her heart,

If only she knew better from the very start... 

He made her feel lively, he made her rejoice every moment, 

Then left her heart irreparable and filled with dents...

He was the reason for her laughter and joy, 

And like every other little boy, he also broke her apart like she was a toy...

Left her nights sleepless and filled with pain, 

Lived up to his promise of making this relationship full of amusement and less mundane...

Her thoughts ate her up alive,

For those demons, her mind would never be suffice...

Her heart was tortured, 

She was standing at the border...

The border that lead to doom and self-destruction,

The only thing that seemed close to perfection...

She was tired of it all, 

Love gave rise to her downfall...

She was just an ordinary girl who loved fairy-tales, 

But that made her weak and frail...

Indeed, he gave her reasons to live, 

A reason to die, he did also give...

And wanting an easy way out was what she desired, 

All her emotions built up the fire...

"I am sorry," she whispered to him,

While he was busy in his pseudonym...

She finally took in a deep breath,

And stepped into the pit of death...

She Caught His Eye, He Made Her Want to Die

She said she was happy, she said she was glad, 

Yet there was something different; she looked plain and bland...

No one knew what went wrong this time, 

Yet, her mind mourned for her heart, who, again, was the victim of another crime...

She thought she had learned how to hide it from the outsiders, 

"Ma'am, I think she just needs to sleep," but little did they know, that the dreams make the wounds grow wider...

Forced to move away from the window, she finally had no choice but to fake her sleep, 

Every time she closed her eyes, her dreams burdened her heart with grieve...

"She was alright. She used to fly," She heard her mom say, 

"Who stole your colors, Sunshine? Who made your life so gray?"

Those very words struck her, her eyes eagerly awaited the dismissal of her mom from the room,

And once assured that everyone were asleep, her heart sank into the endless doom...

Her mind went numb, her eyes flowed rivers of emotions, her heart screamed in pain, 

"Why? Why did he do this?" Her thoughts erupted, "He didn't give me another thought. Was I such a disdain?"

And her mind weakly tries to console, "It's not your fault that you believed him... He said he was different," 

But, the damage was already done, her heart bore an irreparable dent... 

Nevertheless, her handicapped soul whispered, "I had given him my everything... He promised me a future... He told me that he loved me, so why did he go?" 

Her mind, tiredly says, "because of the new one's extravagant and exciting show... Little did you know, this friend of his would steal your glow..."

And the night fainted into a dull glimmer of the sun,

While she tried to ignore the one who couldn't be shunned... 

-Safa Hassan

They Perform & Play... With Each Other

As the night grows darker, he turns the lights dimmer, 

Could this be an indication? A situation to confer? 

But, it seems like they are way past any discussion, 

A truly physical and mental acclamation...

It's too soon, but, she already feels the currents pass down her spine, 

She can't help thinking how it all feels just so fine...

She doesn't know what to do next, 

She bites her lips watching him stretch and flex...

The anticipation made her hands and feet turn cold, 

This isn't going as she was told...

One touch and he made her soul feel immensely warm, 

He can't help flashing his signature lopsided grin seeing her transform...

Breathing rapidly, breathing fast, can't think, can't make it stop! 

They make each other's passion excitedly hop...

They are popping, locking, riding and grinding, 

A rhythmic tune their frames are melodiously singing...

Blow, brush, graze... His insolence was the right fit,

She looks up in his eyes and he knows that the exhilaration is lit...

He nestles her cautiously, eager to see her every hue.

Whispers, mischievously, in his velvety tone, "Careful, my dear, you next move is my cue..."

She closes her eyes, allowing her body to feel the tune, 

Trying her best to resist his playfully disobedient voice; avoiding the impending swoon...  

And then she opens her eyes and grasps the reality, 

Watching in bewilderment as her fingers play the keys of the piano, effortlessly...

Glancing to the side she notices the theatrical ambiance, 

The spheres of light blinding her by their radiance... 

And he was there, sitting atop the grand instrument, holding the mic and looking at her with a gaze so loving, 

His lips caressing the words of the song that he's singing...

She looks towards the keys and can't help but think about the thoughts that had filled her head, 

Amusingly smiling at her passions being intimately fed...

-Safa Hassan

Perennial Daze

I feel locked up in a dark and unknown place, 
Somewhere deep inside, from where there's no escape...
Constant irritation, annoyance and sadness, 
In a place deprived of bliss and bless...
Pain is the only thing that sends in satisfaction, 
Happiness seems to be an assumption...
With a dark soul and a thoughtless mind, 
And a heart that's tough to find...
Waiting for absolution, that never came or probably an end that'll get rid of it all, 
Seems like I've dug a hole for myself and all kinds of love are taking their toll... 
And I'm burning in the fire that you've lit, 
The torment, agony and grief which slit the wrist...
Guilt engulfs me in its perpetual cloak, 
But, breaking a promise never felt so calming, so bold...
With the thoughts of being held and feeling the loving warmth of their arms, 
I decide: if I haven't gotten that, I might, as well, end it all; just to feel calm...
Then it happens; everything feels so real now that I've woken up from my deep, uncomfortable and unsatisfactory sleep, 
Just to find myself wincing in pain and trying to avoid the strange and inescapable weep..
Surprised to find the dried, red flakes, 
Underneath which stood the cause of my uncontrollable tears and immense ache...

-Safa Hassan

There They Go Again...

He had shattered her in a million pieces,
Her heart turned black and blue 'cause of the everlasting bruises...
She puts on her mask, her friendly face, to hide her tears,
Bore the pain, with a smile in front of her near and dears...
As time passed by, she tried to fix her broken pieces together,
Despite succeeding, she was still upset, as the scars wouldn't fade, ever...
As for the young boy; he realized the extent of damage he had caused,
And the contemplation led him through the similar pain; a pain so strong. that it had his life stuck on pause...
So, he returned back with a heartfelt apology and a comforting hug,
Alas! The instant he saw that strong face of hers, he caught the lovers' bug...
Just as she turned, she faced a wide, well-built chest,
She looked up and saw the same ol' charming face; vanished were the rest...
Moments passed by and not a word was said,
Wordlessly, they stared, not knowing what to say ahead...
Unknowingly, they leaped into an enchanting embrace,
She buried her face in his chest and inhaled the scent her mind could never erase...
Once apart, she smiled the warmest smile, that faded all the scars away,
He sincerely apologized and felt the burden rise off his heart and kept at the bay...
Having heard him say 'sorry' and seeing the sincerity in his eyes, she realized he had changed,
Giving him another chance, felt ordained...
Then and there onward he didn't want to stop talking to her,
Creating new memories to replace the bad ones, was what he wanted to offer...
She accepted him, for he seemed promising and made her feel alive again,
He turned her heart from stone-cold to sunshine warm; omitting the grim past and the unforgivable pain...